In 1988, when I was born, I was 12
years away from the new millennium and in 2012 I am again merely 12 years away
from the new millennium.
The difference off
course is nothing but the morphological changes.
Today I ponder
over an amazing topic, a question and the most romantic idea: “I want to become a (profession) when I grow up.”
It’s amazing
when you hear from children about the future profession they want to choose. It
feels as good to hear as to imagine the child one day achieving that professional
career that s/he utters. I never knew (neither did I inquire) about my future
ideal as a child. May be my school teachers would remind me. I do remember that
by grade 8th I would reluctantly respond to the question “what is
your future plan?” with “doctor”.
Time slipped and
so did matriculation. Perplex with the option of deciding between Pre-Engineering
and Pre Medical, I consult few of the best career counsellor and professionals
and somehow cling to pre-engineering. Well, to their question “what is your future goal?” I respond, “I guess I want to study management sciences...
or maybe I want to become a doctor... no I feel like becoming an engineer...”
Finally, I am in
Lahore and in the first day of the college our Urdu professor sir Tahir Masood
asks a million dollar question during an introductory dialogue. “Please one by one introduce yourself: your
name, your region, your school and what do you want to become?” Why would
the teacher ask us our future plan? Doesn’t he know that we are pre engineering
students and we will become engineers? My heartbeat has already raced off, as I
for the first time in my life hear the words “Electrical engineer, Mechanical Engineer, Civil Engineer, Electronics
Engineer, and Computer Engineer” while students in the front row respond
and Tahir scribbles every detail on his file paper.
It’s my turn and
I haven’t yet decided my specialization in engineering, I speak “...I don’t want to be an engineer (50
students and the teacher startled at my statement fix their eyes on me) but, I want be academician and I plan to do
PhD in Physics” This was brilliant; it not only surprised the audience but
myself. Now the biggest joke to share with you all, the same year I drop
physics in examination.
Well, this is
2012 and I stand here with a degree in my hand. I am not a doctor, neither an
engineer. It is as if I have done everything and yet nothing. While I travelled
the first half of the equidistance to the year 2000 with my parents and
teachers, I wandered in the next equidistance journey from 2000 to 2012 on my
romantic ideas. That made the 24 years of my life. I do not regret for not having
a clear goal all these years, I wish to start anew, with clear and defined path
for the rest of my life.
Happy New Year-
Happy 2012
Towards a destiny with clear road map |
(P.S. I loved
art and Architecture)